曾经。现在。

曾经，
她就像她一样，一直依赖着我，
再怎么忙再多远，一有时间，
她都老是说：
“我来找你，好吗？”
“开门给我哦。”
“我到了。”

现在，
她就像她一样，一直依赖我，
无时无刻都给我最真诚的问候。
她也总是说：
“Bii,我来找你哦。”
“Bii,我到了。”
“Bii,开门。”

不知道什么时候开始，
身边总是出现很好很好的对象
在我们爱到最深处的时候
她们总是给她们的全部
我也懂当时的我给的都是全部

我真的害怕有一天
在她想离开的时候
会不会像现在说过的话会有很大的反差？
 
其实我不该想这么多
我应该对自己有信心对她有信心
或许以前的前两段实在太惊天动地了
那些反差实在很难接受
从那一刻我很爱你
甚至有一段时间想两个都不要
结果还是选择了其中一个
另一个很等着你
甚至到了选择分开
选的又是另一个
另一个还是等着你
我尝试劝了但是还是重复般的发生
到了她们想走了给的是许多的反差
我想我还是很怕

不过我们再一起了
我就知道我可以做到
原谅我说我害怕
我害怕你会离开
我害怕自己很投入了你会离开
那种感觉很辛苦
那种感觉我不想再有了

像今天早上说的
其实当你初恋男朋友真的有些压力
而且是分开了又让我们复合的那个初恋男朋友
我想我很疼你吧
希望我们可以好好的
你说过不会在意我身边有很多女生朋友
不过再怎样女生都是会吃醋
但是我想说你很有信心
我怎么都没想到你会说
“她们都输了，因为我是你女朋友。”
赢了吧！
哈哈哈。。

好啦。不写料。
还得醒来开门去吃早餐。
晚安咯！


tzesiong

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DEAD  blog! 
Hahahah...what a word to describe my "Secrets".
Well, getting stronger day by day and moving towards my new hopes,new wishes,and new goals.
Hope that I will get the job from UOB. I've been wasting 2months doing nothing.

Erm, not really nothing but yea,meet up with my buddies, meeting new people, trips, foods, reading lots of psychology articles and of course, pangsai~! LMAO! *puutt!*

And I got something for someone, le me say it in this way,

To someone I loved blindly months ago,

I feel sorry that you couldn't make your mind in giving me a spot in your heart. I know you felt the tensity once or maybe several times when I told you my current girlfriend treated me so well before we get together. But honestly, you knew what you've done and I was there no matter what happened. Forgetting my dignity, my self-respect and I felt that you were taking advantage on my interest on you when we were only in Stage 1. Only if you understand what is Stage 1 mean. 

I'm sincere in making you happy but what I'm receiving in return from you is like a kid's tantrum. Frustration, loss of control, anger and lack of patience. And I'm glad you finally understand the scenarios and I'm sorry if I offended you with my words last time. I ain't showing off and doesn't mean that you are not good neither. I'm not trying to tease you with this short note here (although you won't be seeing this) but yea, this is all I could say to you, change the way on treating someone that love you and someone you love. I learned from my mistakes, and I hope you do as well. The way I did to you may not be the best one but I tried my best showing you my interest but I'm sorry. Somehow, giving up is better than forcing each of us to fall in love, right? Best of luck and we are still friends!

And hmmmm, I didn't send you that 3 words the other day. It was a prank text from one of my friend. I'm sorry because I got no guts to tell you that after you sent me a love in return. Sorry.

 

 Stop drinking, you don't need to do so. Take care and control your emotions!

Sincerely,
Tze Siong

Done ctrl c + ctrl v from my note to this blog. I hope you will see this.

Beside this, another stuff to announce,
I'm taken and unavailable! 

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